It’s never been easy to be his best friend. To always be there for him whenever he needs you, to solve his problems, to make him happy, and to ease all the sadness he feels. You were like his mother, sister, and yaya. You just wanted to be present anytime he calls your name. Others said it’s too much, he should learn how to live his life without you. But when I started to think of it, that was the worst idea I ever heard. At first I don’t care what other may say, it’s my life and his my life. All I wish was to see him happy and contented even if that means his happiness was in the arms of other girls. He had his girlfriend for years and I was there whenever they fought for some reasons. Until things gets worst for both of them. He said every little thing to me and I was like a sinking ship hearing all the things he said. That night was very painful for me coz my biggest fear happened. I’m too scared to see him being hurt by others and the fact that I cannot do anything to comfort him. That was the day I wish he never trusted me. I cried myself to sleep and when I woke up my friends told me to stop it, stop being martyr, stop loving him, and fix yourself. I love him and he never knows about it. And I was too scared to say it coz I know he won’t accept it that’s why I choose to leave him before everything in me will be broken.
Now it’s my fourth day living my life without him, Yes its hard to go on while trying to get rid of your daily routine. But I realized day after day that too much pain can kill you. Sometimes you should learn how to appreciate yourself.
Minsan lumayo ang isang tao hindi sa gusto niya kundi kailangan niya dahil ayaw niyang masaktan ang mga taong matagal niyang prinotektahan.
Sobrang hirap lumayo sa mga taong sinasandalan mo ng matagal na. Iyong mga taong pinili makihati sa sakit na nararamdaman mo. Na minsan hindi mo naiisip kung nakakaperwisyo ka na.
I really wanna stay beside my bestfriends dahil sila iyong kaya kong takbuhan pagsobrang pagive up na ko. Lagi lang silang nandiyan para yakapin ako at iparamdam na safe ako sa tabi nila. Sila iyong magtatayo sakin pagsobrang lubog na iyong sarili ko. Masyado akong nawili sa pagsandal sakanila, hindi ko inisip na may problema din pala sila.
Pinili kong bumitaw kahit sobrang hirap. Ginusto ko rin magpaliwanag bago umalis pero wala akong lakas ng loob para magiwan ng dahilan. Hindi ko sinasadya na mangiwan sa ere. Mas ginusto ko lang lumayo at hanapin ang sarili ko ng hindi nakadepende sakanila. Masakit dahil hindi ko magawan ng paraan para maliwanagan sila dahil alam kong hindi nila ako papayagang bumitaw… Selfish man ako pero gusto kong bumalik sakanila ng buong buo ako..
Iyong Twin ren na kaya silang patawanin.. Iyong twin nila na kayang maging present pag kailangan nila.. Iyong twin na kayang maging malakas para sakanila…
I’m really sorry if my decisions messed up.. I didn’t mean to hurt both of you, if you only knew how hard my decisions is. If you only knew that every minute I think of this things it break me into pieces.. How I wish Ill be the best of the best friends for both of you…
I’m sorry….
Your Laughter will turn to fears, strengths will became your source of weakness, and love will ruin yourself
(Source: youtube.com)
Kala ko at first I can hide all the pain. I try my best not to cry, not to be hurt, and not to feel anything. But I guess its not effective, unti unti akong nadudurog. Hindi ko na alam kung san pupunta, gusto ko ng tumakas. Gusto kong maging masaya, gusto kong sumigaw ng malakas hanggang sa mawala lahit ng sakit, gusto kong ipikit ang mata ko at pagmulat nito maayos na. Hindi ba pwedeng ibalik na lang ang mga bagay sa dati nitong lugar? Hindi ba pwedeng iba na lang?
When I was a little child, kala ko ang buhay ay parang isang playground lang. Kung saan pwede akong maglaro, tumawa kasama ng kaibigan ko, at makipagkulitan. Hindi ko naisip na sa likod ng kasiyahan ay may pagkakamali, may nasasaktan, at may nahihirapan.
Lumaki ako na lahat ng gusto ko nakukuha ko, siguro dahil dun ako minulat ng magulang ko. At siguro iyon lang iyong kaya nilang ibigay sakin. Minsan masaya dahil lahat ng materyal na bagay nakukuha ko, hindi ko napapansin masyado na pala akong kulang. Walang pagaaruga at walang pagmamahal. Masyado akong tumingin sa lahat ng materyal na bagay na pwedeng mawala sa isang iglap. Masyado akong naging komporatable sa buhay na ganun. Hindi ko nakita na nawawala na pala unti unti.
Ginusto ko tumulong pero wala akong magawa. Gusto ko sisihin lahat ng tao kung bakit biglang nagbago ang buhay namin, pero naisip ko wala na din palang maitutulong iyon. Na minsan kailangan mong tanggapin ang katotohanan na ito ang realidad ng buhay, hindi ka laging nasa ibabaw. Parang tinitingan mo ang barkong papalubog at hindi ka kumilos para iligtas ang sarili mo.
Nahihirapan, Nasasaktan, at Natatakot ako sa pwede pang mangyare. Hindi ko alam kong kakayanin ko pa dahil sa ngayon unti unti na kong nanghihina. Gusto kong lumaban pero nauubusan na ko ng lakas. Saan ako manghihingi? Kung alam ko naman na sakin din sila nakasandal.
Kung sana mas maaga kong nalaman na magkakaganito, una pa lang gumawa na ko ng paraan. Pero tulad ng sabi nila, “Mas masakit ang katotohanan kahit ilang beses mo itong paghandaan.”
It just makes me realize how weird life is that the exact same moment that meant nothing to you, you meant everything to me. Now I can’t forget, and you can’t remember.
CRUSHES!!!
Lahat tayo dumadaan diyan. Iyong pakiramdam na sobrang kinikilig ka pag nakikita siya. Masaya ka sa simpleng “Hi and Hello” niya kahit alam mong napakababaw na bagay iyon sakanya. Iyong feeling na natatahimik ka pag tinatanung ka niya at pag alis niya kulang na lang tumalon ka sa tuwa. Pinagkakatitigan mo siya ng palihim at paglingon niya bigla kang titingin sa iba.
I never believe in wishes coz I know this things are not true. But when I first saw him, everything’s changed. He was my ultimate crush, my ideal boyfriend and everything. He mean so much to me and I mean nothing to him. Yeah It’s funny and sometimes it sucks. Sometimes I wish to be that special person to him. And sometimes I wish to get rid of that feeling. Coz right now, the reason for my smile before, was the same reason for my pain. And if only God give me one wish that would be your life!!!
“By Chance (You and I)” - J.R.A
Hi
Girl, you just caught my eye
thought I should give it a try
and get your name and your number
go grab some lunch and eat some cucumbers
WHY, DID I SAY THAT?
I don’t know why.
But you’re smilin’ and it’s something’ I like
on your face, yeah it suits you
Girl, we connect like we have bluetooth
I don’t know why
I’m drawn to you
Could you be the other one so we’d equal two?
And this is all based on a lucky chance
that you would rather add then subtract
You and I
could be like Sonny and Cher
honey and bears
You and I
could be like Aladdin and Jasmine
lets make it happen
La La’s
Hey
How’ve you been?
I know that it’s been awhile.
Are you tired ‘cause you’ve been on my mind
runnin’ thousand and thousands of miles
Sorry, I know that line’s outta style
but you
you look so beautiful on that starry night
loving the way the moonlight catches your eyes and your smile
I’m captivated
your beauty is timeless never outdated
I don’t know why
I’m drawn to you
Could you be the other one so we’d equal two?
and this is all based on a lucky chance
that you would rather add then subtract
You and I
could be like Sonny and Cher
Honey and bears
you and i could be like Aladdin and Jasmine lets make it happen
la la la
Babe
It’s been 5 years since that special day
when I asked you on our first date
I guess it’s safe to say
You and I
are better than Sonny and Cher
Honey and bears
You and I
Are better than Aladdin and Jasmine
We’ve made it happen
lalalalalala
Let me say
You look so beautiful on our wedding day
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